Let me start off by saying I love animals, and I'm usually very kind. But lately I've been having these urges. We just found a kitten, and it kept jumping on my bare leg, meowing. It's just driving me insane. So I picked it up and slung it, and laughed. It didn't get hurt, but I wanted it to.
I keep having these really bad, horrible, unnatural thoughts about murder and suicide. And the words, "Kill, you're a murderer, kill a thousand, you're a victor, kill them all, and you're God." I stay angry, at everyone, even you and I don't even know you, and I feel pissed off.
My mom recently abandoned me over her drug addict boyfriend, neglecting my autistic brother, and I really just hate the world. And then...I'll calm down, like my energy ran out, but the thoughts are still there, just not as intense.
So tell me, what's wrong with me?
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